“Victor’s Remorse” & Boundaries
As the year 8 (2024) ends, and the year 9 (2025) gets prepared to receive us, certain cycles will be forced to end, and many doors will be closed despite protests. Some things will end smoothly… and others will take a dramatic exit. Make sure to stay focused on what you should be doing at this time. If you decide to “help” anyone, point them in the right direction… but no walk-alongs or hand holding. It’s going to be easy to get caught up in feeling like you “should” involve yourself in something that wouldn’t be your issue otherwise, and it’s also goin to be easy to convince yourself that it’s your “conscience”. I promise you it isn’t. Your conscience is there to help you manage morality and govern your own behavior, not to shame you into investing, engaging, or pouring into other people. Many of you have, or will, come to the realization that some of the people you love are not going to transcend the spaces they are in. Regardless of the reason, it will become apparent to you that you are pouring into a cup that they simply walk away from once you’re done pouring— they never drink & they rarely, if ever, reciprocate with anything worth drinking. These realizations will lead you to a deep transition period; it will be a time for incubation for some, a time of destruction for others, and an infinite number of themes throughout and between.
If you feel like you’re in an “incubation” phase, you have to stay there. Eggs don’t half hatch then get back to it.. neither do things born regress back to their source. If you wan’t to “hatch”, stay put and stop coming out to help people and/or do things that don’t aid your development.
If you feel like you’re in a “destruction” phase… drink water, access gratitude, and stop fighting it. Learn to release expectations for other people. Let the only thing you expect from people be that “they are who they are”. Stop creating internal narratives and suppositions about people, negative AND/OR positive… you have no idea what’s in other people’s minds or hearts, but actions will not deceive you. Your awareness of those actions won’t either, move accordingly.
If you feel “lost”, focus on an area where you don’t feel that way. If “there isn’t one”, you’re in the rabbit hole and would benefit from some less “spirituality” based daily activities. This process can have you 10000% lost at times, absolutely, but you should be grounded enough to pull yourself together when you find yourself at a “dead end”. If you don’’t have a way to ground yourself in your day-to-day world, then when the “Spiritual” world is quiet, you’ll spiral. Understand that “Sprit”, and the “Universe”, will not move out of sync with itself because *you* want to be “on” all the time. When it’s time for silence, you will hear it. When it is time for *rebirth*, you will feel it. When it is time for stillness, you will know it. When you cannot connect with it, you will fear it. In this instance, “lost” is a matter of listening, and knowing that “hearing nothing” IS something. You have to learn how to respect and identify the natural cycles of Grander Design if you want to learn to accurately read your “compass”.
Ego Oracle: Okana
